How hard is this?! Ugh. One step. One more step. A stumble. A sigh. Maybe even just a moment of pausing while down. Ok, time to get back up again.
Can you feel the weight, the effort, the obedience? Lately God has been telling me to “finish strong”. Do the right thing in many areas of my life, to change my perspective. Stop feeling hopeless where I am at and wrap things up.
Finish strong. Surrender your current reality.
This current reality is not my forever reality. I needed that. I needed some hope as I am surrendering where I am at. I am waking up each and every day, going through all the motions, one more time. Lowering my nets ONCE AGAIN. Over and over. As I am continuing to live…..I am finding that God really does take care of the little things.
As I surrendered….He has delivered.
My biggest surrender lately is being able to say “it’s OK that I am not the best at my job. I tried something new, and it didn’t work out”. It’s ok to fail.
My Oopsland perspective is that I should celebrate my growth. Oopsland will celebrate that I took a leap of faith and stepped waaaaaaay out of my comfort zone.
But Perfect Isle Syndrome keeps creeping in. It keeps telling me if I just try harder, if I just work longer hours, if I just got the right project…..THEN I could succeed. Then I would be perfect.
In actuality, this current failure is catapulting me to further, better realms. 3 new jobs have already come my way. Funny how that works. God couldn’t do that until I was OK with failing at my current state.
That was what he was asking me to be obedient in.
Lower your nets. Finish strong. Keep going, but wrap things up.