I am studying the book A Confident Heart by Renee Swope through Online Bible Studies at Proverbs 31 ministry.
Our motto this week is #movingfoward.
Why o’ why do I always want to go back?
My days are filled with thinking I had it better in _________. You fill in the blank. It could be anything from 5 years ago, 15 years ago or 10 seconds ago.
Where I am at currently, is never right and I should always be somewhere else.
Sarah Groves says it perfectly in her song
For me, it’s like a film reel in my head. You’ve heard me talk about Perfect Isle.
Perfect Isle is my Egypt. Perfect Isle still has access to my psyche…….they play all of my past videos with happy go lucky, everything was “perfect” fanfare to try to get me to come back from Oopsland.
The truth comes from Oopsland. In Oopsland, my friends keep me grounded. They remind me and play videos that were the reality.
They remind me of how tired I was. How stressed I was. How sad I was. Perfect Isle was full of slave masters who drove me until I could accomplish no more, and then asked for just one more thing. Perfect Isle took everything it could from me, leaving nothing left for anyone else, much less myself.
I have been a slave to many things…..many things I want to be free of.
- Food Addictions
- Co-dependent Love
- Career success
- People Pleasing/Performance/Perfectionism
What if the Israelites could have had a video to remind them of being slaves in Egypt when they were moaning in Exodus 14:11-12 that they wanted to go back?
What if I could have a video that popped up to remind me of truth? Remind me that being a slave to ___________ (fill in the blank with whatever you are a slave to) is bad and I would be happier without it.
What videos are playing in your head? The Perfect Isle ones that make you go crazy because you want to go back and it was all a bed of roses?
Or the Oopsland videos that remind you it is better to move forward?
It is hard. It will be worth it. You can move away from slavery and into the new freedom that is just around your current sand dune. I’ll do it with you. #moving forward