“WHAT?! How is the possible…..I can’t believe it…….that is soooo unfair……they don’t love me………”
This week I had what I call a $500 reaction to a $5 situation. Which basically means I COMPLETELY over-reacted.
When I over-react like that, I know to look for the emotion deep inside. Somewhere in my heart is an injured place that needs to be brought forward for healing and truth.
This situation was wrapped up in so many others this week. All with intertwining thoughts and storylines.
The main theme was what Renee Swope talks about in her book A Confident Heart as I continue that study this week with Proverbs 31 Ministries. Our hashtag this week is #IAmNot So let’s refute some stinkin’ thinkin’ a bit today.
Or if we think in terms Perfect Isle and Oopsland (cuz that’s the language of this blog) ……….I was spending all of my time in Perfect Isle and it was really getting me down.
One example of how these AM thoughts (against me) impact my life negatively happened on Saturday morning:
- I had gotten up early to get a lot done. I had high (UNREALISTIC) expectations for the day. As I went about my morning schedule and ran errands, NOTHING was working out. I mean nothing. My path was not efficient, the places I needed to go were not working out, the people were frustrating me….etc etc etc
- I was getting so down on myself, that by 10:30am I thought I had FAILED so much and was so INCOMPETANT I may as well toss in the towel for the rest of the day.
It was only 10:30am. How can 1 person fail that much in less than half a day? But I had convinced myself I was that awful. Might as well quit. Expectations like these come straight from Perfect Isle.
Luckily I caught my stinking thinking…..but I wrote some of them down and will refute them here. I am still on a journey to Oopsland, and as I transform, I am catching these things earlier and earlier before they get out of hand.
Messages that were in my head:
- Perfect Isle: “You are so incompetent you can’t even plan a Saturday morning agenda to the best use of your time”
- Oopsland: “It’s ok….did you enjoy your longer cup of coffee this morning? Maybe you needed a few extra minutes at home today”
“When I said, ‘My foot is slipping,’ your love, O Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.” Psalm 94:18-19
- Perfect Isle: “You are so stupid that you don’t even know things other people learned in grade-school”
- Oopsland: “You’ve lived such an adventurous life, that information got pushed out when you were jumping off mountains in the Andes”
“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert, streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah 43:18-19
- Perfect Isle: “You were supposed to connect with these 10 people a week ago….and you haven’t even followed up….everyone else did”
- Oopsland: “It’s ok…you need to do it soon but the world will not end because you didn’t do it last Monday”
“If God is for us, who can be against us?” Romans 8:31b
- Perfect Isle: “You lost that opportunity just like you always do….clueless, lazy, dreamer, disorganized….etc etc”
- Oopsland: “You probably got a better opportunity because you were focused on new creations and looking forward”
“But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.” I Corinthians 1:27
Let’s all start refuting these negative messages about our failures declaring #IAmNot just as Renee Swope is teaching so many of us in her book.
RESOURCES if you need something:
If you are looking for resources for Inner Healing Prayer…..I received certification under Ed Smith. I trust all of their teachings. http://www.theophostic.com/
A simpler, individual guide to learn Inner Healing Prayer for yourself that compliments Ed Smith’s teachings, is from Lillian Easterly Smith (not related). I serve under her here in Michigan at Lifecare Christian Center and trust her teachings as well: The Great Exchange: Replacing Lies with Experiential Truth by Lillian M. Easterly-Smith BCPC